Work

Many times throughout the week at work, I fantasize about just buying a plane ticket and bolting to Korea.  Every time I'm miserable at work, I hear the lyrics "Work sucks... I KNOW!" from Blink182.  I also dream about just quitting my job and looking for a more enjoyable job.  There are so many things I want to do and don't want to do.

I think the reason why I hate work so much is that I'm still young.  I'm freaking 23 years old, I have my whole life ahead of me, and I'm wasting it at work.  I guess that's why so many people just go back to school.  School is (surprisingly) more fun, it's comfortable, and you always have something to look forward to.  Richard and I used to (or maybe we still do) resent the college students because they're always so happy.  My theory is that it's because they always have something to look forward to: end of midterms, end of finals, winter/spring/summer breaks, job interviews, job hunting, the "real world".  Once you're in the "real world" and you're stuck at some job, you have nothing to look forward to except for maybe a promotion.  And that only comes once a year or two.

This summer was the first summer that I didn't have a summer break.  I felt so robbed when my receptionist left for her maternity leave (which means she gets a break for 2+ months), and my coworker left cause he had his baby born at the same time (which means he was gone for 3 weeks).  I had one short break in Korea, which felt like a tease since I had so much fun and time went by too quickly.

Nonetheless, I am thankful for a job.  I know there are many out there jobless and sad.  In the end, no matter what our circumstances are or what life-stages we're in, we will never be satisfied.  Colleges students hate school and want a job as soon as possible, young adults want to quit their job and go back to school, and everyone is just unhappy with their lives.

With that being said, let us look to the cross because the Gospel always puts things into perspective.  Christ is the only one who can fill this void.

Smile

There are a few things these past few weeks that have made me smile:

 1. Random people have been visiting me in LA. Although living alone in the apartment is pretty nice and quiet, it can get lonely sometimes. So having unannounced guests coming to grab dinner with me and just hanging out has been a good change from my usual routine of just work, exercise, dinner, watching shows, and sleeping early.

 2. Kirk is back from Florida for good, and Snugs will be back for good tomorrow. I have missed them both dearly and am glad that they are coming back.

 3. Dinko's sermon yesterday about "tasting and seeing that the LORD is good" and "fearing who God is" really hit home. It never really occurred to me that seeing that God is good and fearing Him go hand in hand. And I think the past few months that I have been struggling have been so difficult because it was hard to taste and see that the Lord is good in those circumstances because I have not been fearing God. Even the phrase "fearing God" can be misinterpreted. We don't fear God because of what He is going to do, but we fear Him because of WHO HE IS. By knowing who He really is, our perspectives on every aspect of our lives change, and His goodness is that much more apparent.

 4. My coworker, Branson, is back from his paternity leave. It's so fun and interesting hearing all of his stories about his newborn daughter and his whole experience about being a father now. Kind of makes me excited for the future when I have a wife and go through the whole process of becoming a father too. Also, I wonder when I'm gonna be an uncle... 형??? ㅋㅋㅋ